Old hands

There is something beautiful about old hands. I never really noticed them before. I don’t really remember my grandparents hands. It wasn’t until I saw a photo that one of my cousins took of her mother’s hands kneading bannock dough, that I started to think about it. Sheryl said it was one of her favorite photos of her mom. She said it connects to happy memories of her mother.

Her mother had been gone for about a year when we talked about the picture. I asked her what had made her take the photo, she told me that she always wanted to remember her mother’s hands. That thought sat with me, it really resonated. I thought about how soft my mother’s skin has gotten over time. I thought about how her hands have changed.

I hadn’t thought about how many times my mothers hands had comforted me or all the items she had held as she handed them to me. As I think about all the times I held my mothers hands, all the times she rubbed my back and all the times she grabbed a hold of me and told me not to worry, and all the times she said she loved me. I realize how precious my mothers hands are to me. I realized exactly why my cousin would want a photo of her mothers hands. The hands of my mother represent all the love and security she has for me.

A letter to my children

You amaze me. You have grown into the most amazing, independent and strong adults. You show compassion to others. You respect the world around you. You value life and the lives of others. You know that sometimes people walk in pain and sorrow and I see the kindness you show to them. You walk with love in your heart and show that love to others. It gives me comfort to know that you will always know love because you are so loved.

You should know that some day when I’m gone, my love will always surround you.  It will be there in the kindness you show others. It will be there when you appreciate the beauty of the earth; it will be there when you show respect to others. Most of all, my love for you will be there as you teach your children to be the same amazing people that you are.

Each smile, each moment of laughter, each moment of amazement that you experience with your child; know that the love you feel for them is the same love I feel for you. That love never changes, never dies, and is never diminished by distance or time. Love is infinite. So always know that I love you beyond measure and beyond time. I am proud that you chose me to be your mother.

Love you now and always. ❤

Connections with the Land

Do you carry the land or does the land carry you?
Are you immersed and infused? Do you feel it in your blood?

Do you carry the land?

Does it walk with you?

Does it heal you?

Do you feel it within you? I feel the land, it is ever present in its beauty, in its calm and even in its wild freedom. The land exists in my heart and my spirit.
Where is the land in you?

Do you carry the land or does the land carry you?

When you walk through the bush do you feel the land? Can you see its gifts, it medicines, its life?

Do you feel it carrying you, sustaining you and healing you?

Does the land carry you? Are you connected to the land? Are you part of the land? Is it part of you? Do you hear it speak and feel its heartbeat?

It speaks through the rustles of the wind in the trees and grasses. It heals through connection. It heals through plant medicine and the water. It heals through its spirit. When I walk barefoot on the land, it sustains me with its gifts. I am infused within the land. My ancestors walked here, healed here, bled here, ate here. This land gifted my ancestors with life.

The land speaks to me. In the winter it speaks in the cold and the silence. The the spring it speaks when it awakens with new life.  In summer it speaks in its beauty. In the fall the land speaks, with its gifts, relaxation and promise of restoration.

It carries me, it sustains me, it heals me.

I feel the land, it flows within me, I carry the land with me.

I carry the land and the land carries me.
What about you?

Do you carry the land or does the land carry you?

Medicine Gifts 

One summer several years ago when we were camping at mile seven. My Aunt, my fathers first cousin, Alsena met us there. We had been camping for several days when Auntie Alsena joined us. One afternoon we spent picking medicines and ĺearning about the plants that we were picking when Alsena told us that her friend Diane was going to meet up with us. She had camped there with us before. When Dianne showed up she had brought sage and sweet grass with her. We learned about creating sage bundles and sweetgrass braids. Once we finished making the braids and bundles we took them and hung them up to dry in the breeze off the lake. 

Then we began to clean the roots and prep the medicines. As we were cleaning the medicines Dianne and Alsena were telling stories of the medicines and how we got them. 

One of the medicines was spruce gum. This medicine, spruce gum, was/is used as an antiseptic. It helped to hold skin together when someone was injured. It was/is used to treat colds and is added to other medicines depending on the need.  The story we were told was about the gift of spruce gum and how badger gave it to us. The badger told the people how to use it for medicine and food. Alsena said that one man was lost in the bush for two weeks in the winter and he ate spruce gum to help sustain his body. 

There are so many plants that can help people with their health, it’s important that we keep this knowledge strong and that we spend time with those who know how to treat people.